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When Sean and I started going out we agreed that we weren't gonna have sex until marriage. It was important to both of us. He never pressured me. However, less than a year into our relationship we began having oral sex because we didn't really consider that sex. I thought, "As long as we're not having intercourse we're still saving something." I can see how stupid that was now but at the time, I still considered myself a virgin (even though I didn't feel much like one afterwards). Well, you know the song, over the next several months our relationship really went downhill. We broke up and got back together 4 times. The last time we tried getting back together he began pressuring me to have sex. We did; just once, and later that week we broke up for good. In the beginning, oral sex seemed like no big deal, but it really messed everything up. It was kinda like a "gateway drug", because it led me into so manyother crappy decisions which later turned into crappy consequences. The emotional roller coaster was one thing but the std and pregnancy test game that I have to play all the time now is no joke either. For awhile, I was scared that the sores that would come ang go from time to time on my mouth were from genital herpes. The good news is that the doctor said that they were just cold sores... The bad news is that it cost me $300 to run the std test to find out. If I knew the story was going to turn out like this I would have never signed up for the part!
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